BELIEVE IT OR NOT, THE TRUTH, MY WORDS

First some parts I did write to certain people, stone phillips, gang unit,
Major crime unit, steven king, standard examiner, fox13 television......
What happened really happen here it is it really happened I talk about
It becuz the bitches don't want me to and nomatter what or how they
Try to control me I'm saying what I'm gonna say I ain't looking for pity
Or comments or stars I don't even care how many hits my shit gets
The bitches oh there's a lot of them, they wanted to do as much torture
And unbelievable things all at once why u say? So that noone would ever
Believe me, they said "like all that shit could really happen to one person"
They say it everytime I talk about it. I call them bitches stupid dummies etc
They pretend to be me doing fucked up stuff once my sister went to
Welfare (workforce services) she yelled making a huge scene "my name
Is joan stephanie cruea I demand u cancel my foodstamps!" I go to the
Store and guess what? .......
I hear voices, but not the scitzo kind alright, its all them damn bitches
,but also some of u kind people, I'm split inside myself, I have. Many
Sides thanx to my mom & people that actually knew they played games
With me for yrs without me knowing I was medically different, it makes sense
Now, december 2005 I was shot in the head (yes later I got xrays & ultrasounds
For the police department, proof sumthing did happen) unaware myself
For awhile unbelievable I know,THEY STAGED IT WORLD, THEY HAD IT ALL
STAGED they got me right where they wanted me, they poked me with
Those really thin (hair thin bout invisible to the eyes) snakes or whatever
Modern technology like exterminators use or other tech stuff I shouldn't
Just say poked it continues, but in dec 2005 it began the torture THE GAME
She said "what's that steph? " everywhere id look she wasn't there its like they
Put a camera behind my eyes to see what I see. While I watched blue collar
Comedy show on video she started repeating every word they'd say after
They'd say like an echo, 3 days straight 24 hrs, night day they chanted
"Fuck u stephanie fuck u bitch" and "fuck me in the asshole, fuck me in
The asshole" no sleep its all I could hear everywhere I went it echoed in
Grocery stores and power lines, they read a law book bout the privacy act
And used it as a manual on what they could do and the way they read it
They thought it meant what they legally can get away with it. Then they
Pretended to be demons in my head I guess I was suppose to think I was
Possessed & for another 3 days (well he kept tracked of how long he
Said something like 76 hours) I was poked with sumthing painful in my
Eyelids I closed my eyes they blew air up my nose to startle me, the
The apartment above different people move in but they r with the bitches
They all join in the game, everyone covering up for everyone else right
Who's going to believe me anyway my sister sai"you can't escape my wrath"
After awhile I couldn't tell if I was awake or dreaming then insane said
To me "its all real steph" and he saved me, becuz by that time I wanted
To just die so I tell everyone no matter what u see on his record, his jail
Time, prison time insane took the time help me before going to prison
In 2006 (sometimes helping me has landed them in jail, prison)
He could of looked away, but he didnt, he loves my bob enuf to love me
For bob because of insane neither me nor bob died. I remember his voice
Meijo's voice and some other kind people I started to call them (who, what
How and why) because everytime she said "who's that or what that" one of
Them would yell back "its none of your business who it is" ect
I called insane the eye in the sky he saw everything I didn't. My head injury
The bitches super glued the exit wound behind my left ear (I remember
Them telling me to stay still and pushing my head to the side) and they
Called a doctor to ask what would happen if someone swallowed a
Bullet (becuz one bulllet rickached and went down my nose cavity I
Had a sezuire infront of my son he's fifteen now, they told people I died
Even showed an obituary. They do things like break the law and then
Say it was me they filmed me being shot put it on this internet they
Stomped on my stomach (I was pregnant with triplets) they didn't want
Me to have the attention and she said about my bob "fuck that he don't
Get to be all happy about that shit" they used a brand new baby
Bottle brush, nail cuticle......a bbgun :( they continuisly break in my
Place (id move but I'm poor and they'd follow anyway) they mess with and
Hurt people that care about me, they stick something down the wall
It electrocutes me sumtimes whatever it is is left on and sends a surge
Threw my body when I'm in bed, they put ticks hundreds in my bed
They was horrible comming out my nose and ears (I was told they go
Where the heats at cuz their wood ticks) I have dead ones in jars as
Proof, I sleep with flea & tick collars the rubber grounds my bed.
These stupid dummies spend hours and hours doing crap to me
I always ask WHY? Becuz really there isn't anything all that amazing
I'm ordinary looking I've got severe pms (who wants to b me with that)
I just work go to the store and watch tv and recently I got this awesome
Internet phone I'm on now writing this I'm just not that exciting, I know
Sum want my reputation, my status yet, others want to ruin my
Reputaion (their all in this together, I know they don't make sense)
I'm leaving out graphic details the sexual torture and stuff I'm
Not wanting any young kids or persons to have to hear that horrible
Stuff
Okay here's another weird twist becuz these bitches threw everything
In okay the privacy act mentions sum gang stuff the baby stuff k well
The bitches turned into gang stuff so that nobody would think it was
Them right, so she blames my bob and his boys, then they imitated
Rivals shooting people to start wars a lot of young boys died got injured
They tagged the city with all kinds of crap. Its sad world what these
Bitches have done and do some did six months maybe even a year
But them ones the bitches got to do the dirty work for them too get
More time than the main bitches they've changed what they look
Like then everyone just goes along with it they just start calling them
By different names even my name.
I have to be patient let the law eventually work it out so I don't
Retaliate you know kids retaliation gets u more jail time then the
Original perpatrators of the crime against you or sumone u love
The law adds the reco act onto anything gang related and retaliation
Causes charges to be called aggravated (means planned out)
So kids don't walk that path so many have walked on there's kids
In utah (everywhere) 15 yrs old with life or death sentences becuz
Of retaliating
My older son once read somewhere " a wise man learns from anothers
Mistakes, a fool learns from his own" I wish he'd beleived it more now
You know the bitches did everything to keep me from finding work
They interfered with applications they'd go grab it after id drop them
Off they'd use bluetooth and intercept any calls I've had a job now
For 2 yrs in april 2010 thank god they gave me a chance its minumim
Wage its not yet 40hrs, but they gave me a chance I thank them &
Appreciate them every minute of everyday of my life.....so don't judge
Me for where I work becuz they believe me & believe in me.
People invade my privacy with modern technology
Okay one last thing world, my expired drivers license was stolen in
2006, (I got it again finally, I'm poor it took awhile) k people used
My name did somethings, got arrested or'd out, used my name, warrant
Went out I'm in a fight well I was refusing to fight, I finally call
The police asking for gang unit becuz the stupid dummie was tryn
To jump me out of a gang I'm not in(my bob's) and she's not even
In well I get arrested for failure to appear (2 felony counts: identity
Fraud) well I get put on suicide watch, first thing they say they are
Waiting (WAITING) to charge me for attempted suicide, repeat WAITING
I know crazy! Then a cop says she knows joan stephanie cruea and
Tells them I'm not her, so they hold me 12 and 1/2 days in suicide
Watch to break me into admitting that I'm not me, (yes this is
Where I tell stone phillips in letters) I remembered the non-emergancy
Police phone number so I called the police on the police, I was moved
Out of suicide watch after they figured out where I called from, yes
I got to use the phone cuz I was told I could make 2 calls or so
I'd like to thank the few officers that knew I'm not lying one snuck
Me an ibuprofrin for my headache, one snuck me sandwiches after
Another told me I couldn't have anymore sacked lunches ever I
Went beyond my limit, now world they really do give u messed
Up food on watch and I'm allergic to veggies (most) fruits. I needed
Food, and another would sneak me a extra milk THANK YOU
OFFICERS FOR YOUR KINDNESS (I know I actually thanked police)
Well I go to one court it gets dropped, but I never left suicide
Watch I end up infront of another judge (my luck I thought bcuz
Everyone is scared of this judge) (my sides were documented upon
Me meeting this judge) I have a real attorney this time and
He helps get the charges already on my name from the bitch
That I finally found out was in a different facilty using my name
(She used it six times, she says all fair and square) okay I tell
The judge "iwont take resposibility for what other people did
With my name" "I'll take responsibility for what I know I've done"
I MADE UP A NAME TO OBTAIN GAS AND ELECTRIC SERVICES
BCUZ MY LOW INCOME APTS REQUIRE YOU TURN THEM ON
WELL SINCE A COUSIN OR TWO RACKED MY BILL USING MY
NAME WHILE I LIVED SOMEWHERE I DIDN'T PAY FOR GAS MY
DUMBASS MADE UP ONE USING A FAMILIAR NAME K, WELL
MY SISTER AND MOM HAVE THIS KID WITH THE FAMILIAR
NAME CALL THE COMPANIES YELLING THEY GOT HIS
INFORMATION WRONG SO THEY CHANGE EVERYTHING TO
HIS THEY STEAL A BILL MAILED TO MY HOUSE TAKE IT
TO COURT AND WALLA HE IS NOW CONSIDERED MY VICTIM
(THEY TELL EVERYONE ITS SEXUAL STUFF ECT, TO MAKE
ME LOOK LIKE A PERVERT, MY SISTERS WRATH FOR PRESSING
CHARGES AGAINST HER IN 1994 FOR WHAT SHE DID TO
MY SON) I ALSO TURNED HER IN TO "TO CATCH A PREDATOR"
SO SHE AND MY MOM AND OTHER PEOPLE REALLY WENT
AFTER ME THEY SHOULDN'T DO THINGS TO BABIES TO
CHILDREN RIGHT GUESS WHAT WORLD I'D DO IT ALL AGAIN
TOO THEY ALSO HELPED THE PEOPLE THAT SHOT ME
THEY HELPED MAKE ME CRAZY THEY ARE COMPLETLY
INVOLVED IN EVERYTHING HAPPENING TO ME AND THAT
THE TRUTH BELIEVE IT OR NOT.....
ALSO I DON'T LOOK TO SEE IF THERE ARE COMMENTS AND
I NEVER LOOK TO SEE HOW MANY HITS MY STUFF GETS
AND EVEN IF ONLY ONE PERSON EVER READ IT AND I
NEVER KNEW IT, THE TRUTH IS TOLD AND I FEEL
BETTER JUST PUTTING IT ALL IN BLACK AND WHITE
THANK YOU WORLD .........STEPH